The last day on earth

The last day on earth would have to be an insanely epic day, filled with mass riots and criminal activities of all sorts taking place. I would spend my last day somewhere warm, somewhere untainted by the modernization of western society, possibly a small town in a South American country. The day would be spent by taking part in a tribal ritual of self exploration and coming to terms with my true self and the universe before I pass on because who wants to die without knowing the true universe. So after i spend the day on a spiritual journey the night I think would be best spent "losing one's self" if you will. I would attend a huge party where my perception of time and space would be altered if not lost altogether, making my last hours feel as though they would never come to an end. I think the party and altered perception would be necessary since the last day on earth should not be spent dwelling on the fact that it is going to end it should be spent enjoying life and maybe even take some time to look at the ending with a different view, posibly one of positivity seeing potential for something new instead of only seeing the end of something old. The  present is a gift and should be enjoyed as such, I would use whatever means at my disposal to do so.

The Christmas Season.

Christmas is a great time, there's christmas parties new years parties it's filled with chances to get inebriated and best of all it's christmas so while stumbling around happily you will occasionally get the pleasant thought that food and presents await. Christmas time is all about carollers, lights, and the hopefully happy attitude of others, but by the time we are nearing the 25th it is understandable why some people are a real life scrooge, i mean after listening to christmas songs for weeks hours at a time I'd be pretty damn pissed off myself. Just the other day my mom started playing her christmas c.d.'s, come home from school there's christmas songs playing, go to bed there's more feicking songs playing it gets really annoying really fast. But thats what the spiked eggnog is for, forget the annoying music and enjoy the seaon.

Agateophobia is my phobia

Agateophobia is the fear of insanity, i am particularly afriad that i will be or i am insane. The thought of losing touch with reality and being alone in a world where nothing is real is most unsettling. One's imagination being one's god controlling and creating everything around them, this is not the way it should be. The part of this i am most afraid of is that those close to me the people i care about never existed and never will exist they were all in my head, my world being ripped apart never being able to trust my perception and just living and seeing but never knowing. This fear is a result of views on life that have occured while in a different state of consciousness, i will not go on to explain these thoughts because they would bring up controversial ideas and i don't have enough time to go into my views on these moments of insight. They are most enlightening but most frightening and there is no way to no for sure if they were right or wrong or if im just plain insane. But on this plane of existence this is as real as things could be.

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My dog ate my homework, fortunately it was crap already.

Life We Never Expected

With our advancements in technology we are becoming more aware of the world around us, how things work why they are the way we are. Even how we influence reality. Recently I read a short article about a scientist conducting work on creating non-organic living cells, actually metal based cells. The experiments have made huge advancements and the cells do have some life like characteristics. This would change everything about our view of extraterrestrial life, imagine if the movie Transformers wasn't completely fiction. Life could really exist anywhere.

The Very First Day

If I could go back in time and revisit and point in my life with maintained consciousness of that day it would have to be the day i was born. It would be a strange experience to be born, with all the emotions. What would be most interesting would to look at my thoughts what would thoughts be like before you have any known language? Would they be a language? Would you just see images? Only emotions? I think it would change someone greatly to know their mind before it was "polluted" by the world we live in, in its natural state as pure as possible. Maybe even earlier then, before my birth to the point when we obtain consciousness and awareness of our surroundings. It's just a mystery that we may never know, what was i thinking?

A good book.

Somewhat recently a good book that i read was The Celestine Prophecy, this book was written by James Redfeild in 1993. This novel was adapted as a movie in 2006. The book is about the main character going on a journey of spirituality in the country of Peru after learning about the discovery of an "insight". The main character is going through a spiritual transitional phase in his life. He goes on a journey where the Peruvian government is trying to stop him from discovering the insights and releasing them to the world, for fear that they would ruin the basis of religions everywhere. I would recommend this book because it is almost such a good fiction that it seems real. A lot of the basis of this book is about energy and how things interact with one another. It is down to earth and includes a lot of good leassons for anyone to learn from, teaching us about how interactions affect one another in positive or negative ways. After reading the book it gives you a feeling of enlightenment, like you are seeing the world in a different way, a better more positive way. It helps you to be concious of the way you interact with people and notice the way people act, wether this is them being; a poor me, aloof, interrogator, or intimidator. Knowing these control dramas is interesting to see in the people around you and also helps you to work with the knowledge to have better conversations and not playing into their drama.