Agateophobia is my phobia

Agateophobia is the fear of insanity, i am particularly afriad that i will be or i am insane. The thought of losing touch with reality and being alone in a world where nothing is real is most unsettling. One's imagination being one's god controlling and creating everything around them, this is not the way it should be. The part of this i am most afraid of is that those close to me the people i care about never existed and never will exist they were all in my head, my world being ripped apart never being able to trust my perception and just living and seeing but never knowing. This fear is a result of views on life that have occured while in a different state of consciousness, i will not go on to explain these thoughts because they would bring up controversial ideas and i don't have enough time to go into my views on these moments of insight. They are most enlightening but most frightening and there is no way to no for sure if they were right or wrong or if im just plain insane. But on this plane of existence this is as real as things could be.

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My dog ate my homework, fortunately it was crap already.

Life We Never Expected

With our advancements in technology we are becoming more aware of the world around us, how things work why they are the way we are. Even how we influence reality. Recently I read a short article about a scientist conducting work on creating non-organic living cells, actually metal based cells. The experiments have made huge advancements and the cells do have some life like characteristics. This would change everything about our view of extraterrestrial life, imagine if the movie Transformers wasn't completely fiction. Life could really exist anywhere.

The Very First Day

If I could go back in time and revisit and point in my life with maintained consciousness of that day it would have to be the day i was born. It would be a strange experience to be born, with all the emotions. What would be most interesting would to look at my thoughts what would thoughts be like before you have any known language? Would they be a language? Would you just see images? Only emotions? I think it would change someone greatly to know their mind before it was "polluted" by the world we live in, in its natural state as pure as possible. Maybe even earlier then, before my birth to the point when we obtain consciousness and awareness of our surroundings. It's just a mystery that we may never know, what was i thinking?